Crying

          This day has been filled with many tears. (However, no, I am not currently crying as I write this.)
          I hate to cry. But now that my eyes are as dry as cotton, I think it will be physically impossible for me to cry within the next few days.
          I think that recovery from an ed almost "requires" several buckets of tears. I always think, "Surely now I have reached the requirement of tears needed to fully recover!" Then my anxiety kicks in full gear and proves me wrong. Ed then proceeds to say, "Well folks, get out the buckets cause its going to be a sob fest tonight! Step right up to see the crying Bean preform the task of filling up this bucket with tears! Throughout the show you will also see the 'over used tissue', 'the disappearance of makeup', and 'glowing red eyes'! But that's not all folks! For an additional $19.95 you receive the audio addition that includes the miraculous 'snot nose horn', 'the loud gasp for air after one has cried for to long and has forgotten to breathe', and, my favorite, 'the sobs of Bean' from Bean herself!" Should I even be surprised that ed enjoys my pain? I'll do you one better and even explain why he does!
          I have had anxiety lately, and it leads to tears which leads me searching for comfort. Ed proudly steps into the picture (which is not a very pretty one) and proceeds to tell me that he can provide comfort for me. He tells me that I just need to skip one meal and I'll feel better! I then get the baseball bat and beat him to the ground. Thus, when he regains his consciousness, he sees me crying and enjoys the scene of it because I would not give heed to him.
          Ed does not realize that real people and objects trump him, so I always find myself in my husbands arms when anxiety hits. So, grab your favorite bear, person, blanket, or pillow when your next rain storm occurs!
          Best of luck avoiding the rain in your life!
Beanie